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assalammualaikum..

it's just like 2 century haven't update the blog. like a corpse wake up then update blog.. ok.. kidding.
it is because i don't have any idea to put any story in my blog. that's lame.. other have their own blog and know how to share their story well. but i felt like too complicated. afraid what i post in my blog, people will think bad. because people different even all human in this world Allah create same. different people, different perspective view. i hope i can always update my blog and share with others especially my readers. i know my english like 'langsam' gitu je.. but i don't care bout it. at least i try my best. people today moving forward without looking at the back. i know certain people would see back and can't let go the past. stuck in the middle of past and present. that's really (fuck)...

i would like to type in this blog. the truth bout me. i got lazy eyes. it's true. that's why when i in relationship with someone. girls will leave me just like that. to be honest. i don't hate girls but i hate bitch which mean damn filthy fucking girl. seriously. play my heart feeling just like that.

the reason why break up because felt boring, and because of the lazy eyes!. and it's time to change. i know that.. it's just in relationship!. but hey! if we not change to be more serious n fucking seriously in relationship. don't blame other if anything happen in the future. girls like that, i mean like bitch.. filthy whore, or what ever it is, didn't deserve to get a true love.

i got lazy eyes since age 9 . if i not mistake. people like me do have a problem in public especially public speaking because of my eyes. the eyes contact was really fucking worst. but i not afraid stand in front of audience. i can, but just little bit stammer... i know speak english well but not english highest level. i learn to that level. because i want to be like other people out there that can take an advantage/ opportunity to change living standard. i want to be like tan sri zeti akhtar aziz, Tan Sri Dato' Setia Haji Ambrin bin Buang, and lot other people out there and so on.. people like that... it is great when we know speak english well, can communicate well with foreigner, speech in front of thousand audience(melalut suda)

to me.. lazy eyes is my specialty. why? because people been confuse when they see me. they will be felt like really weird. because they don't know i see who and so on.. hahaha.. but believe my. my eyes vision  clear and no double vision. . . u know that i mean.. different view at the same time like sesumpah..

the moral here is.. i think maybe we should be confident not over confident but still we need to believe that we can face the challenges, people around me and so on.. hahaha..

sincere from me.. the juling