i still love her

Assalammualaikum.

i can't sleep because when i close my eyes. her face. suddenly appear .
i do love her. but i can't force her to love me like i love her. everything change so fast. things that i can't cope, i face it. people laugh at me. it's embarrass. it's been long time haven't heard her voice. my life. felt empty without her. i cry for nothing.

men like me... cry because she dump me. what silly. perhaps other will find other. but me.. i can't . . . i still love her. now everything change and time move forward. i wonder, how she is rite now? i do worry bout her . no words, no call, no chat, etc.

for the first time, i chat with her sister. i felt little bit scared. because her sister already married. at the same time i chat with her brother in law.

hmm.. things become too complicated. how i can fix that relationship. hmm.. all the moment... the story.. sweet memories play. i can't hold my tear.

i still remember. at puduraya.thats was the first met. ever in my life between me and her. before this. i communicated using facebook, phone... she look soo adorable, lovely, cute, plus, i can't compare her with others. she stare focus at her phone, while i look at her face clearly. i want to talk with her but she busy with her phone soo i let her finish first with her phone. (seriously, that was really stupid thing that i have done) because a few minutes later her sister n brother in law come stand in front of gate to pick her up. no words that i can say at that time just 'good bye' . . .
i really disappointed with myself. why i let her go just like that and didn't say anything before she left. the precious moment just come once. hmm..

i wish that i can see her again. i do love her. i don't wanna lose her but i can't do anything. she change totally different. she doesn't have love towards me. and move along forward without look back. that's really pain to me. to see her go ....

there's no bidder. only tears fall before sleep.

hasil kerja dia 

lovely-kan... :' ) 

i always pray her. happy always . . 

and i can't forget bout her. it's really pain. i rarely open her picture. because i will cry. (silly kan..)

thats all for today..