Assalammualaikum.
michael buble. i like the way michael buble. his music make me calm. and i wish can see him. live. in front of me. but it's not gonna be happen.. michael buble song make me like sit like a dead people and calm. great is it. . .
listen the michael buble song. . . great :)
Tuesday 15 January 2013
Monday 7 January 2013
i still love her
Assalammualaikum.
i can't sleep because when i close my eyes. her face. suddenly appear .
i do love her. but i can't force her to love me like i love her. everything change so fast. things that i can't cope, i face it. people laugh at me. it's embarrass. it's been long time haven't heard her voice. my life. felt empty without her. i cry for nothing.
men like me... cry because she dump me. what silly. perhaps other will find other. but me.. i can't . . . i still love her. now everything change and time move forward. i wonder, how she is rite now? i do worry bout her . no words, no call, no chat, etc.
for the first time, i chat with her sister. i felt little bit scared. because her sister already married. at the same time i chat with her brother in law.
hmm.. things become too complicated. how i can fix that relationship. hmm.. all the moment... the story.. sweet memories play. i can't hold my tear.
i still remember. at puduraya.thats was the first met. ever in my life between me and her. before this. i communicated using facebook, phone... she look soo adorable, lovely, cute, plus, i can't compare her with others. she stare focus at her phone, while i look at her face clearly. i want to talk with her but she busy with her phone soo i let her finish first with her phone. (seriously, that was really stupid thing that i have done) because a few minutes later her sister n brother in law come stand in front of gate to pick her up. no words that i can say at that time just 'good bye' . . .
i really disappointed with myself. why i let her go just like that and didn't say anything before she left. the precious moment just come once. hmm..
i wish that i can see her again. i do love her. i don't wanna lose her but i can't do anything. she change totally different. she doesn't have love towards me. and move along forward without look back. that's really pain to me. to see her go ....
there's no bidder. only tears fall before sleep.
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i can't sleep because when i close my eyes. her face. suddenly appear .
i do love her. but i can't force her to love me like i love her. everything change so fast. things that i can't cope, i face it. people laugh at me. it's embarrass. it's been long time haven't heard her voice. my life. felt empty without her. i cry for nothing.
men like me... cry because she dump me. what silly. perhaps other will find other. but me.. i can't . . . i still love her. now everything change and time move forward. i wonder, how she is rite now? i do worry bout her . no words, no call, no chat, etc.
for the first time, i chat with her sister. i felt little bit scared. because her sister already married. at the same time i chat with her brother in law.
hmm.. things become too complicated. how i can fix that relationship. hmm.. all the moment... the story.. sweet memories play. i can't hold my tear.
i still remember. at puduraya.thats was the first met. ever in my life between me and her. before this. i communicated using facebook, phone... she look soo adorable, lovely, cute, plus, i can't compare her with others. she stare focus at her phone, while i look at her face clearly. i want to talk with her but she busy with her phone soo i let her finish first with her phone. (seriously, that was really stupid thing that i have done) because a few minutes later her sister n brother in law come stand in front of gate to pick her up. no words that i can say at that time just 'good bye' . . .
i really disappointed with myself. why i let her go just like that and didn't say anything before she left. the precious moment just come once. hmm..
i wish that i can see her again. i do love her. i don't wanna lose her but i can't do anything. she change totally different. she doesn't have love towards me. and move along forward without look back. that's really pain to me. to see her go ....
there's no bidder. only tears fall before sleep.
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hasil kerja dia
lovely-kan... :' )
i always pray her. happy always . .
and i can't forget bout her. it's really pain. i rarely open her picture. because i will cry. (silly kan..)
thats all for today..
Wednesday 2 January 2013
pleks
assalammualaikum..
it's just like 2 century haven't update the blog. like a corpse wake up then update blog.. ok.. kidding.
it is because i don't have any idea to put any story in my blog. that's lame.. other have their own blog and know how to share their story well. but i felt like too complicated. afraid what i post in my blog, people will think bad. because people different even all human in this world Allah create same. different people, different perspective view. i hope i can always update my blog and share with others especially my readers. i know my english like 'langsam' gitu je.. but i don't care bout it. at least i try my best. people today moving forward without looking at the back. i know certain people would see back and can't let go the past. stuck in the middle of past and present. that's really (fuck)...
i would like to type in this blog. the truth bout me. i got lazy eyes. it's true. that's why when i in relationship with someone. girls will leave me just like that. to be honest. i don't hate girls but i hate bitch which mean damn filthy fucking girl. seriously. play my heart feeling just like that.
the reason why break up because felt boring, and because of the lazy eyes!. and it's time to change. i know that.. it's just in relationship!. but hey! if we not change to be more serious n fucking seriously in relationship. don't blame other if anything happen in the future. girls like that, i mean like bitch.. filthy whore, or what ever it is, didn't deserve to get a true love.
i got lazy eyes since age 9 . if i not mistake. people like me do have a problem in public especially public speaking because of my eyes. the eyes contact was really fucking worst. but i not afraid stand in front of audience. i can, but just little bit stammer... i know speak english well but not english highest level. i learn to that level. because i want to be like other people out there that can take an advantage/ opportunity to change living standard. i want to be like tan sri zeti akhtar aziz, Tan Sri Dato' Setia Haji Ambrin bin Buang, and lot other people out there and so on.. people like that... it is great when we know speak english well, can communicate well with foreigner, speech in front of thousand audience(melalut suda)
to me.. lazy eyes is my specialty. why? because people been confuse when they see me. they will be felt like really weird. because they don't know i see who and so on.. hahaha.. but believe my. my eyes vision clear and no double vision. . . u know that i mean.. different view at the same time like sesumpah..
the moral here is.. i think maybe we should be confident not over confident but still we need to believe that we can face the challenges, people around me and so on.. hahaha..
sincere from me.. the juling
it's just like 2 century haven't update the blog. like a corpse wake up then update blog.. ok.. kidding.
it is because i don't have any idea to put any story in my blog. that's lame.. other have their own blog and know how to share their story well. but i felt like too complicated. afraid what i post in my blog, people will think bad. because people different even all human in this world Allah create same. different people, different perspective view. i hope i can always update my blog and share with others especially my readers. i know my english like 'langsam' gitu je.. but i don't care bout it. at least i try my best. people today moving forward without looking at the back. i know certain people would see back and can't let go the past. stuck in the middle of past and present. that's really (fuck)...
i would like to type in this blog. the truth bout me. i got lazy eyes. it's true. that's why when i in relationship with someone. girls will leave me just like that. to be honest. i don't hate girls but i hate bitch which mean damn filthy fucking girl. seriously. play my heart feeling just like that.
the reason why break up because felt boring, and because of the lazy eyes!. and it's time to change. i know that.. it's just in relationship!. but hey! if we not change to be more serious n fucking seriously in relationship. don't blame other if anything happen in the future. girls like that, i mean like bitch.. filthy whore, or what ever it is, didn't deserve to get a true love.
i got lazy eyes since age 9 . if i not mistake. people like me do have a problem in public especially public speaking because of my eyes. the eyes contact was really fucking worst. but i not afraid stand in front of audience. i can, but just little bit stammer... i know speak english well but not english highest level. i learn to that level. because i want to be like other people out there that can take an advantage/ opportunity to change living standard. i want to be like tan sri zeti akhtar aziz, Tan Sri Dato' Setia Haji Ambrin bin Buang, and lot other people out there and so on.. people like that... it is great when we know speak english well, can communicate well with foreigner, speech in front of thousand audience(melalut suda)
to me.. lazy eyes is my specialty. why? because people been confuse when they see me. they will be felt like really weird. because they don't know i see who and so on.. hahaha.. but believe my. my eyes vision clear and no double vision. . . u know that i mean.. different view at the same time like sesumpah..
the moral here is.. i think maybe we should be confident not over confident but still we need to believe that we can face the challenges, people around me and so on.. hahaha..
sincere from me.. the juling
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